by Tara Sue Me
I wish I could remember the first erotic novel I read. Whatever it was paved the way for what I’d read, and eventually write, in the years to come. Likewise, I wish I was a reader who didn’t mind if someone was looking over my shoulder while I read, but I am.
I remember writing my first sex scene and how I had to almost force my fingers to type certain words. Granted, years later, the dirty words fly from my hands with little to no thought, but I wonder sometimes if I’m all that removed from the writer who basically had to work up the courage to describe a naked man for the first time.
And why, if it was that hard, did I keep doing it?
The closest I can equate it with is when I had my first child. I remember standing in the doorway of my bedroom, holding my weeks old son. It was either very late or very early depending on how you looked at it and I was your typical sleep deprived new mom. As I held my newborn bundle of sleepless joy, I looked down at him and very distinctly recall thinking, “I CANNOT believe people do this TWICE.”
Yet less than three years later, I would stand in the same place, holding my newborn daughter.
Writing erotic romance for me is a lot like standing in the middle of that door frame. The first time I wrote a sex scene, I couldn’t imagine doing it again. But something about it spoke to me and I couldn’t stop once I started. The more I wrote, the more I had to write. Fortunately, the words came easier.
There’s a freedom you have when you write erotic romance and I think that’s one of the reasons I keep writing the genre. You don’t have to close the bedroom door. You don’t have to fade to black. You have the ability to explore the entire spectrum of human relationships. You have fewer rules.
And I think somewhere buried in that reader who constantly looks over her shoulder to see if anyone’s watching, lives a writer who flourishes in that freedom.
About the Author
Tara Sue Me wrote her first novel at the age of twelve. It would be twenty years before she picked up her pen to write the second.
After completing several traditional romances, she decided to try her hand at something spicier and started The Submissive. What began as a writing exercise quickly took on a life of its own. An avid reader of all types of fiction, she soon discovered she enjoyed writing a variety as well.
Tara lives in the Southeastern United States with her family, two dogs, and a cat.