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6366107Reviewed by Kristen Benne

I Apologize by Bradley Booth is the story of Tony Richardson, a successful man who has endured a terrible tragedy and resigned himself to never loving again. Despite his resolution, Tony finds love when he least expects it, with Christina – a beautiful famous violinist .

The Author himself has lost his fiancé, which leads me to believe this is a true story, or at least somewhat based on real events in Bradley Booth’s life. This adds a great deal of meaning, and emotionally connects the reader on a more intimate level.

In the beginning of I Apologize, the author lets on about a tragedy that occurred in a past relationship, while not divulging any details about it throughout most of the book. This suspense is slightly intriguing, and kept me reading in search of answers. It is clear that Tony is reluctant to love again, and also has a great fear of the past repeating itself.

I Apologize is displayed in a format that expresses a clear order of events which makes it easy to follow. While the text itself is very well written, the formal tone in which the two characters speak to each other throughout the entire novel makes the dialog difficult to relate to; it’s hard to unlock the true feelings behind the uptight and formal language that Tony and Christina use with one another. I was hoping to see this couple engage in at least one casual conversation, where they displayed the comfortability of a normal, married couple. Although I was expecting a modern story, there were very few aspects of this that seemed to be consistent with present day or even the past decade. It reads like a novel from a much earlier era.

As Tony and Christina repeatedly express their undying love for one another, in a strange and over-the-top fashion, I can’t help but wonder where this love is coming from, as the characters have just met, and barely know one another. Their first meeting is an unexpected meal together. Their second meeting is at a party, which ends badly. They are then married, in a wedding that the groom (Tony) knew nothing about until he was at the altar.

It is difficult to relate to Tony’s innermost thoughts about Christina. The conflict in his mind consists mainly of two emotions: one minute he is feeling paranoid that Christina is trying to control him, and worried that he has made a mistake; the next minute he is feeling blessed and so lucky for having her in his life. It is unclear which is the more dominant feeling, as his mind takes him alternately between these two ideas multiple times, and his feelings never truly come to a resolution. To be fair, his confusion is somewhat justified in the fact that Christina seems to have two personalities – one is that of a sweet and innocent woman, trying to be the best wife possible; the other being manipulative and controlling.

The sexual references are absurd, to say the least. The strange metaphors and descriptions of intimate moments will make you laugh out loud, which is unfortunate because I don’t believe they were meant to be funny. The couple constantly refers to each other as: Princess, Dearest, Precious and Sweetness – typically several times in each conversation. It gets to be a bit much.

By the end of I Apologize, we find out the details of the tragedy that Tony faced years earlier, which helps in understanding what Tony has been through. I do hope that in writing this novel, that Bradley Booth found some closure and serenity amid his grief.

Regardless of my opinion about whether or not I enjoyed reading I Apologize,  this novel could be significantly beneficial to anyone looking for support after experiencing the tragedy of losing a loved one. Perhaps this novel is not meant to provide entertainment to the reader; this book may be one to aid in the healing process for someone who has lost the most important person in their life; meant to inspire them to have faith in love and believe that amid the ups and downs, they can live and love again.

Rating: ★★½☆☆ 

Review copy was provided free of any obligation by Bradley Booth. No monetary or any other form of compensation was received.